Ahhhhh, Bliss

Well the big event is over with and we survived, but just barely...Poor R had to help way more than he ever has and I believe he has a whole new appreciation for the work I do.  At least I hope so.  I, as per usual put way more pressure on myself than was necessary, but I used to work well under pressure and produced my best results when that was the case but sadly, those days are gone and pressure just turns me into a screaming fishwife....even I was sick of my ranting, but couldn't make it stop...don't worry I have made a doctor's appointment, since even I know that is not normal or acceptable behavior.

As you might remember I spent the past couple of weeks cleaning the house from top to bottom, the party was a good excuse to get off my butt and get it done..and the house looks awesome and I feel better for getting it done...like a load has been lifted...I guess I was feeling guilty to let the housekeeping slide a bit.  In the past two weeks we also weaned all our calves and sold some crappy cows... I cleaned right up until the Thursday before the party...the day on which R asked me to help him haul some more cows home in preparation to sell them...It had rained off and on here the past two weeks so the ground was pretty wet...he promised we would be done by lunch and I could get back to my food preparation...well , we got done at 8;30 pm... and I was beat....so cleaned myself off of mud and shit and fell into bed..only to awaken at 2 am...sick, from low blood sugar....ahahahhaa for the first time in my life I had get up i the middle of the night and eat something....ughhhhhh... I hated it...the guilt was horrible..it went against everything I have tried to live by.. no eating after supper time... and no snacking...I really struggle with that part of this condition...

So because Thursday was a wash out...with the cattle...I had a double work load for Friday....final cleaning and cooking....I worked until 11 pm that night getting ready...

A friend was coming at noon on Saturday to help me...another first...i have never had any one come to help me before... and I have to admit to struggling with that...to unbend enough to give her jobs to do....hahahhahaha how type A...

R was  a huge help to me on Friday he stood in front of the stove helping me make my crepes, but he said he felt he should since he is the one that insisted I make 4 batches of them....honestly it filled a huge square roaster full....there is enough crepes left to freeze and eat all winter...hahahahah  meatballs too... and we made those Saturday morning... with R's help...it cut the time in half...  my friend and I had a chance to have a cup of tea and a chat...which was nice...you know, gather our thoughts before the others came...and then they were there....I had a few glitches with the food...like trying to get my gravy to thicken...that only happens when you are trying impress people...hahahahha   and a few of the people invited didn't make it...which was disappointing...but it made for a more intimate gathering which was kinda nice...and certainly made less stress for me.... the girls were great about helping with clean up and it was done in no time... the fridge is full of left overs that I will be dividing into smaller containers and freezing...for harvest time, which I hope is just around the corner....

My menu:    Turkey w/ dressing and gravy
                   Ham
                   Meat balls and mushroom gravy
                   Lazy cabbage roll casserole
                   Ukrainian crepes (w/ cottage cheese and cream)
                   mashed potatoes
                   peas and carrots from my garden
                   pickled beets, home made
                   garden fresh tomatoes
                  
and for dessert we didn't have the coconut cream and lemon meringue pies I had planned to make. R convinced me to just buy the desserts from Costco...so we had the:

                 triple chocolate mousse cake
                 mango raspberry mousse cake
  
                 and just for the record they were yucky... I should have made my pies...but it was all about saving fridge space...and not having any left over pie so I would eat it...ahahahahahah 

Every one left by 9:30 pm which was kinda lame...so R and I cleaned up a bit because my type A personality won't allow me to go to bed with the house dirty...  We were in bed by 10:30 and glad of it...we were exhausted...and I was so sore I felt like I had gotten run over by a steam roller...the stress causes the lupus to flare up....so R had to tranquilize me to get me to sleep...I couldn't lay still it ached so bad...but he still fell asleep before me and so at midnight I got up and turned the de-humidifier down to the low setting...and crawled back to bed...I must have eventually slept because it was 9 am before either of us woke up....and then we didn't want to get up so we laid there discussing the previous day until 11 am....got up had poached eggs on toast and off he went.... outside and I had to sit on my ass with my feet raised and am not allowed to do anything for fear of having to take more tranquilizers....one time is okay but two days in a row usually results in me getting sick....they interact badly with the other meds I take...so they are to be used sparingly and only in dire situations...hahahahahah

This morning while I was poaching the eggs, R just had to comment....he was shaking his head when he said " I just can't believe the difference in your mood this morning..."

hahahahha I had to laugh...and chose to take it in a good way...rather be insulted...because no matter how much in denial I may be....I can not pretend I haven't been hard to live with prior to this party....hahahhahaha  

oh well , it is over and done....and my marriage is still in tact...hahahahha

there were 18 people at my party....not many by some peoples standards but for us it was  a big deal since we haven't entertained more than 6 people at a time in the last 17 years....hahahahahah