Groan-niiinnnggg

Cough, cough....ouch ouch....owwwwwwwww... It would be a very short list of things that don't hurt today... I am not sure why either...as yesterday was a pretty easy day...sat around waiting for R to be ready to go to town then sat in the truck while we were in town...and then went outside in the early evening to spread some more mulch..and then sat around some more watching tv....oh the life...actually I hate days like that.  keep me busy, that's what I like the best.  

Well the calves sold for a pretty decent price...and so did the cows...all in all we came home with a pretty nice cheque...and then we went to town and the bank swallowed it all...but the good news is all next years payments are made. yipheeeee... we get to farm for another year....hahahahaha

I shouldn't bitch too much, because the farm does provide us with a living...and a not to shabby one either but it is the cost that gets to me...it is like making a deal with the devil (not that I have ever done that personally) you know, you get to keep farming but it costs you your soul...  and your first born child and right arm and your sanity...a small price to pay for the good life...right ?

We ended up having a bit of money left over and our banker asked innocently if perhaps we would be taking a holiday.....I stared at her for about a minute and then I burst out laughing....R was appalled...but I had tears streaming down my face and had to excuse myself from her office....while I was gone R explained that we have no one to keep an eye on things if we were to think about going on a trip...but you know what I have come to conclude..is that that is just an excuse...an excuse to not ever bother...he likes being here everyday...puttering...that's what he does...putters...little bit of this gets done, little bit of that....so we have dozens of jobs half done and nothing ever completed....hahahahah  HE'S DRIVING ME CRAZY... I thought I could put up with it...but it's been 17 years now and I HATE IT........

Thanksgiving....hmmmmm I am not doing it this year...we  have been invited to our friends who were nice enough to include us in their family plans....the same people for whom I threw the anniversary party.   Yes...we have become that sad childless couple who have no where to go for holidays and everyone feels sorry for...well not everyone, we did only receive one invite....hahahahha  I don't know what we will do for Xmas...since they are going to vegas....alas...we will have to cook our own turkey...

I thought about inviting my son but he has never shown up in the past when invited...the last time he did (5 yrs ago) they came 10 minutes before the dinner was served...they were fighting....they ate and then as soon as the pie was finished...they left.   No visit, no board games, nothing....R would rather not have them and I feel somewhat the same way...better to be by ourselves that with negativity... So I will put up our tree and the outside lights to cheer us up and cook our bird...perhaps our bachelor JW Friend will eat with us, although the JW's do not celebrate Xmas...but maybe since we don't actually do any celebrating he may come....hahahaha  hopefully he has a shower this time...those old bachelor's can get a little crusty in the winter when the water lines in their trailer freeze up....hahahahhaha

I am having quite a problem getting around today...yesterday when I was outside in the garden I crouched down on the balls of my feet... and today my right foot is swollen and sore at the joint where my big toe meets my foot...it is so sore and stiff I can't bend it...and any pressure on it is excruciating...and then my left ankle is still very sore...and causes me to limp...so when I do walk today I am crouched over like an old hag...and teetering from one foot to the next....good grief....just shoot me now...if you had a dog in this bad a shape you would have had it put down....

This cursed arthritis is horrible... I'm done....