Night of Disappointment

Robert and I had a great day yesterday...we got our work in the barn done early, threw a few bales in the feeders and drove into small town for an burger and Chiropractor adjustment...Roberts hips are really bothering him this winter...so you see it is not just me that needs to get away from the very physical work on the farm. His hips hurt so bad sometimes he can't sit still and has to pop muscle relaxers like candy...but I keep trying to tell him that they won't help much when it is a skeletal problem...his family has a genetic problem with the hips...like dysplacia in dogs...his mother had bad hips, her mother had really bad hips..his sister had both hip joints replaced in her her forties and still has to use two canes...his brother also suffers with it and will soon have hip replacement.   and Robert has had problems since teenage years...and has so far avoided surgery because he is so active and has chiropractic care...but  each year it gets harder to get relief from the chiropractor...admittedly they can only do so much... poor Robert, I have great sympathy for him because I know what chronic pain is like... what a pair we are...you should have heard us both yesterday changing to go to town...both trying to put our socks on and groaning and moaning...joints popping and grinding...hahahah it would have been hilarious if wasn't so painful... I looked at him and said "what the hell are we doing to ourselves"

I felt somewhat vindicated at the chiropractors yesterday, not that I needed to because he is a very sympathetic doctor...(yes doctor...Chiropractors go to school the 7 years that your GP doc does plus two more years so don't tell me they aren't real doctors) My chiropractor explains things that are happening to my body, better than my family doc does...
but yesterday while he was having me move from lying on my stomach to my back...I got one of my spasms....the ones in my back that make my whole body go limp...like one of those toys we used to get when we were kids that would be like a horse or a dancer, made of beads on a rubber band and when you pushed up with your thumb on the plastic base they were mounted on, releasing the tension in the elastic band the dancer would go limp and when you released the base the rubber band would go taut and the dancer would stand up...


well that is what my body does when I get one of these spasms..and they can happen any time..so as I stood up off the bench to turn over on to my back...I got one and promptly fell to the floor, or I would have if I hadn't hit the bench on my way down...the doc grabbed for me and I had to lay draped over the bench for a few seconds until the spasms goes away and he helped me stand up... how embarrassing.... unfortunately there isn't much he can do to help with out seeing an ex ray of my spine...but he suspects that the LUPUS is weakening the muscles and tissue that hold the spine together and that like an old elastic band they have lost some of their tension...allowing the vertebrae to move excessively....and that nerves or muscle are being pinched between the bones...   I go for a spinal scan and bone density test on Tuesday morning...and then Tuesday afternoon I have an appointment with my new rheumatologist...since my lady rheumatologist quit her practice and moved to New York.

Any way, what I really wanted to write about today was the night I just survived....Robert decided to sleep in the house last night after spending a couple of weeks sleeping in the barn... I was excited for him...but dreading it at the same time...you see, I secretly crave sleeping in my own bed...
and I thoroughly enjoyed the two weeks I had ours to myself... Robert is a horribly restless sleeper who snores atrociously...and I am a super light sleeper so any little noise or bouncing of the bed wakes me up... he lays in the middle of our king size bed with his arms and legs thrown wide and snores ....and when he turns in his sleep he doesn't just roll over quietly...he lifts himself up on his heels and throws his body over....and usually takes the covers with him...and lays on top of them...rolled up like a sausage roll..leaving me bare arsed to the wind... and I can tell you that that is quite a feat since we have a truly beautiful comforter on our bed made of 100 % cotton made 100% in Canada...it cost me an arm and a leg but ooooohhhh the luxury...and it is over sized too boot... so it hangs at least two feet down each side of the bed...there should be lots of blanket for us both..but not when Robert is in bed...anyway the night was spent...pulling the blankets back...him tossing around like a fish just hauled on to the deck of a fishing boat...and finally at 3:45 am... I got up and moved to the couch...minus my lovely comforter I froze my ass off with a fleece blanket instead...at 4:30 he woke up and went out to the barn and I could finally get some sleep...When I mention having my own bed...(this is nothing new, I have broached the subject before...not separate rooms just two separate beds pushed close together.so I won't feel him tossing around and I would have my own blankets...)  I am met with stony silence...and puppy dog eyes... so I guess I am doomed to go into my twilight years with dark circles under my eyes from lack of sleep...hahahaha