No Surprise

It is no Surprise to me that the novelty of the new equipment has wore off and I am tired of cutting and baling hay.  I have noticed a direct correlation with the purchase of this new, ridiculously expensive equipment and the hours of labour I am required to do. 

Now, I am not a lazy person, anyone who knows me and has seen my yard and house knows that I do not shirk work...but a certain someone in my life seems to have decided that since the Doctors have not labeled my illness with a specific name, that I am not that sick...so I can pull my weight again...

Robert greasing the machine I will be running that day.

On any given day, I can be required to run four or five different pieces of equipment, a typical day can encompass 8 -10 hrs of driving tractor, broken only by the time it takes me to run to the house and make lunch and supper and take it back to the field.

I feel guilty if I complain...but by the end of this last week I was so exhausted I felt like crying...it got to the point where I was praying it would storm so that I could have a day off.  I am determined not to whine to him about it...he must be aware of how much he is requiring of me...and doesn't care...I mean what else can I think.... two years ago he wouldn't let me do a damned thing but read and paint pictures... Now I have no time for either...it's like I was never sick...I only wish my body felt the same way.

small but perfectly formed

Last week we finally took the plunge and bought our first barbecue...we have been tire kicking for a few years...and finally found just what we were looking for....it took me 3 hours to put it together but we ate the best hot dogs ever that night off the barbie....

My garden is producing ripe tomatoes now like crazy and I am picking a head of cabbage this morning for cole slaw.  We ate new potatoes yesterday for the first time...hmmmmmmmm were they good along with oven baked chicken breast and a little dish I like to call my fresh corn hash, which is just fresh stir fried zucchini, onion and baby carrots with kerneled corn and fresh tomatoes, it is very very good.

I finished painting my fake windows, and now am just waiting for a bit of spare time so that Robert can help me mount them on the garage wall. I think they are going to look pretty good. At least them leaning on the wall and my viewing them from the end of the drive way, makes me think they will.



poor kitty, his leg all chewed up

 Our little cat "TROUBLE" is being bullied by a black female barn cat.  His legs are all chewed up from her biting him and Robert has hinted that perhaps she needs to be reminded of her near death experience of last month...in which I came this close to shooting her for killing the kittens of another barn cat. Honestly I do not know what is the matter with her...but all the progeny from that old black and white tom cat are unnaturally mean and cruel to other cats. She is the last one remaining...but if Rob has anything to say about it, not for long.

Big Doctors appointment tomorrow...Rheumatologist in the city.

I am excitedly waiting for a visit from my sister this month...it will be so lovely to see her.  And happy to report that Jen is well, after her surgery.

I can't end this with out telling you that I finally heard from my son...for those of you who are out of the loop, I hadn't heard from his since last November when he came to borrow $400. for a job safety course... and then a few days later came by to get a box of Beef from us. Both visits I told him about his cousin Jen coming to visit and her sister Kim from Jasper coming for one day and that I was making a big dinner and wanted him to come so he could see his cousins, whom he hadn't seen for 13 years. He said sure he would come...but on the day...he never showed up, I must have phoned 20 times but he never returned my calls....ever...for nine whole months...and then last week he calls...to tell me that he was going to the hospital for a laproscopy for a suspected stomach ulcer and had had to take so much time off work being sick that he didn't know how he was going to pay his  mortgage payment this month.

To say I was disappointed would be an understatement, but no really, because I am beyond that at this point where he is concerned...sadly it no more than what I expected.  The only time he ever contacts me is when his life is in crisis.  this time he didn't come right out and ask for me to make his payment, but it was more than hinted at.  I even had Robert listen to the message in case I was being paranoid...but no, it was definitely a holding his hand out, message.

I called back, had to leave a voice mail of course, that is what I always have to do....99% of the time he never returns my calls...and then out of the blue, he wants money... so I left a message, saying I was sorry he hadn't been feeling well, and of course I was concerned as to what the doctors would find..could he please keep me informed...and then hung up....I chose to not mention the mortgage payment dilemma...

He called back a couple of days later while I was outside, Robert talked with him on the phone...but we had discussed the mortgage payment thing and decided we were going to ignore the hint. So that is what we did...and since then we have not heard a word from him.... I have left messages asking him about what the doctors said..but he hasn't answered back, of course.