Ho Hum

I know it is spring and I should just be bursting with energy and ideas for improving my yard but I can barely gather enough energy together to bother getting out of bed each morning...this morning being a perfect example...my heart races irratically and it is a very queer feeling...so when I lay down at night to sleep...it races...I fall into a light doze..and then start having the most bizarre dreams and hallicinations..very disturbing, enough so that they wake me up and the cycle begins all over again....it happend once before like this...when my magnesium got too low...so I woke up this moring resigned to have to start taking the serum daily again....sigh...
I suspect it is the chemo drug I am injected with every sunday that is depleting my magnesium...(it mentions something about that in the side affects of the write up) so I have to take a drug to counteract a side affect of another drug...isn't that how you end up being one of those people taking 28 prescription drugs and end up in the hospital where they take you off all your meds and begin again....I have visions of being one of those people...so I am constantly harrassing my pharmacist to check for contraindicators of my list of meds....she thinks I am narotic.. oh well better that than dead from a drug interaction....

Anyway after only about 2 hours of real sleep last night I am tired as hell today and sick to my stomach after starting the new meds for Fibromyalgia yesterday...felt on the verge of vomiting all last evening and now again this morning soon after taking the med.  ugggh..this is what my life has become...sad, very sad..

On a brighter note... R is getting the grain cleaned today and will be ready to start seeding crop soon...my son is in another crisis but I am forbidden to answer the phone when he calls...16 calls in one day had me stressed right out. so I can see where R is coming from... so I have gladly complied with his restrictions about the phone.. and in his doing that he takes a lot of the guilt away for me. Nice hubby.

Okay, I can feel myself sliding into a coma sitting in front of the computer...that often happens to me...I think it is the radon gas the computer emits....hahahahaha   anyway, I am off to catch some ZZZ's...I hope...later dudes.