Some where in the world it is a beautiful day. Not so much here...Christ is it cold...R and I shake our heads and marvel at the snow they had in the city...just an hour away...and they had 10 inches of heavy wet snow...and blizzard conditions...and here it was dry, a bit windy but still above 0. huh...crazy the whole world has gone crazy. I mean have you ever seen a whole country in such total denial about finances that when the government implements austerity laws they revolt...I'm talking of Greece of course... and what about that crazy guy who had the plot to kill a police officer and then set off a bomb at the funeral...Geez what the hell are people smoking these days...it just goes to show the depth to which society has brought us. I mean in the technology world of today, we don't have to wait for anything, everything is high speed, instant and in the now...what ever happened to patience, saving for what you want, anticipation is half the fun of something happening in our lives, now, you think it, it happens and is over in an instant leaving you feeling unfulfilled. The world is a throw away society and I don't think that is healthy. People live way beyond their means and then whine when they have to pay it off, such a sense of entitlement. I am not sure how we let it happen. Why would we let that happen...
This whole BMO mortgage scandal thing is insane...I find it hard to sympathize with the bank for getting taken in but still...how deep into self gratification and entitlement does someone have to be to come up with a scheme like that. My God...
So my big Doctors appointment went like I planned and yet not.... I did get to ask my questions but he took the wind out of my sail when he read me a letter from my Rheumatologist....in it she tells him she thinks I have Lupus and.......drum roll please....Fibromyalgia.....which happens quite often to Lupus patients...that they develope Fribromyalgia. Which is not what I needed to hear...I know she did make some comment about it at my last visit based on some testing that she had done...but I guess I blocked it out...talk about denial...ahahahah
My magnesium levels have dropped so low that my heart flutters and races like crazy at odd times throughout the day...and so, much to my chagrin, I am being forced to take the magnesium serum...which I hate because it is so sickeningly sweet and makes my blood sugar go up...ahahaha (not that the butterscotch confetti squares I eat are any better). But on the serum I have to be so very much more careful....damn...The Doctor also read R the riot act about my being out in the sun so much...something the rheumatologist also complained about in the letter....that and she thinks my work and home situations are severely influencing my stress levels which causes both the lupus and Fibromyalgia to flare up making me feel worse...Christ...like I didn't know that...
R has now forbidden me to take any more calls from my son, whom we have heard from recently and apparently I have been relieved of all farm duties....ahahahah we'll see how long that lasts...that is one thing I don't like about R coming to the docs with me...I can't edit what they say....and only tell him what I want him to know...ahhahaha not that I would ever do that....wink wink.
Well if one good thing came from all this today it's that I don't have to feel like a hypochondriac anymore. It really wasn't just in my head...ahahahahaha
As a foot note to this spilling of my guts, I would like to add, I have a dentist appointment on Monday next, I hadn't been to a dentist in several years ever since my last bad experience...and generally I liked going to the dentist because it always felt better afterwards...but it took me a long time to work up the nerve..and when I did, last week I had to find a new dentist.. I did, Dr. Wong....one of the tallest men I have ever seen with my own eyes...must be 7 feet...and thin like a rake handle...he's very quiet and gentle...so he took some x rays...(I knew I had a problem, thus the appointment) and I am slated for two extractions on Monday....yikes... one a molar and one a wisdom tooth that will require dental surgery to remove...so I don't think I will be feeling to shit hot on Monday night...hahahaha two weeks after that I go back for a filling...
Splendor
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