OH MY GOD !!!!!

Holy crap.....we have to move the cows home today.....and it is -27......too freaking cold to be outside...never mind riding a quad, with the wind freezing your face solid....brrrrrrr.... one of the things that irritates the hell out of me...is that two weeks ago I mentioned to R about bringing the cows home before the weather got bad....but oh nooooooooooo.... they can still pick at the grass......so now in the past two days we have had a foot of snow....and it is - 27.....the snow has stopped but it cleared and the thermometer dropped.....great...... the only good thing about the snow is that the Xmas lights look prettier at night....

I had planned in the back of my mind to get back to my painting...it has been since early June that I held a brush.....But now, R's cousin has called and wants me to do some more genealogy for her and she has spoken to a professor at the U of A about my books and that prof. would like to speak with me....something to do with some project the Univ. is doing about early pioneer women of Alberta....apparently she read my work and wants to speak to me....

I had done a ton of work on that branch of R's family this spring and swore after 3 months...that I was done working on it...and not going to do anymore projects like that.....and here we are... R has volunteered me to do this new one and I am very angry...and yes....I am acting like a petulant little child being forced to clean its room..... I don't want to do it...and you can't make me...but he can....he just has to look at me with that disappointed look in his eyes...like I have really hurt him because I am not the person he thought I was......fuck...how the hell can you ignore that.... so I will do it.....BUT I WON'T ENJOY IT AND THEN THIS IS THE ABSOLUTE LAST TIME...~!!!!!!!!!!!!

But it could take months ....genealogy is like an addiction...it sucks you in...and before you are even aware months and months have gone by...
I will be forced to kiss some one's ass to get access to ancestry.com since I let my membership lapse....damn....I will have to decide who among the old genie club is the lesser of evils and will gloat the least....bugger it.... I hate kissing ass.  

You have to eat sleep and breath genie...until it is all you think about ....it is the only way to keep it all straight in your head and be able to remember dates and names....  the frustrating thing is I have one whole side of my family I have yet to put into book form.....because of time constraints....and yet here I am doing another (the 5th) book on a branch of the Makepeace family....

So I was informed yesterday morning that we have a date on Sunday afternoon to meet with his cousin...and go through the old letters and photo's she has and make an outline of what she would like to appear in the book.....the ironic part is that the work I did this spring was about this branch of the family but she did not disclose the fact that she had all this lovely family heirloom material until after I had the book completed....I was angry and frustrated...and told them then that if the chose to add the new found material to the book they should just purchase a bigger binder and add the pages themselves......but apparently they heard me about as good as R did....  NO BODY LISTENS TO ME.....  

I JUST WANT TO PAINT....not do genie....